[...If there being honest, she might as well say it]

...When I think about you marrying that guy, it makes me want to puke. [...] Being a maid of honor isn't anywhere near enough. It's not- ...It's alright if that's what it takes to be with you, I'll do it like I said. But I hate thinking about the future. I know you want that but I- I'm not-

[She sounds so selfish. After what she did, how does she have any right to say that?]