( blah blah blah about loss )

[Action]
[Disbelieving her own thoughts, Haruhi manages to step out of the house, but not much further than that. Haruhi makes it about five steps out of House 21 before it all hits her. That of those old people - of the ones who know about Hinamizawa (as far as she knows), of the ones who know that old drama with Shiki, of her and her boys, of all of it... she's the last of them. And this lonesomeness, perhaps, is more devastating than any of their losses individually. She might be turning 21 at the end of the month, but right now, Haruhi feels like a child as she collapses onto her knees and is very aware that she must be crying.

Because it's just so unfair. It is so, so unfair.

--People can run into her there, or when she collects herself enough to go first to Community Building 6 (out in the middle of nowhere, really...) to see Kyon. Or when she finally goes back home, in no real condition and holding no real desire to make dinner. Or en route to any of those locations. Either way, a voice entry follows, her voice very small sounding:]

[Voice]

Leon, you're promoted to Vice-Chief of the Brigade. [ ...She can't muster more than that. She can't muster some big "guys, Keiichi Maebara went home" entry. Much less include Ange in it too. Let someone else do that if they want. Anyone who knows her Brigade will understand from that anyway ]

...You know, the SOS-Brigade I founded a North High was only ever five members. ["When I left home, I was still thinking about expansion" // "That's why I founded one here" ...Neither of those sound right.] The one here in Luceti has seven, right now. But unlike home, I don't know when any of them will vanish. That's how it's always been here, and really, there's a lot more we have to do here- [...Where is her pride, again? She doesn't know. She just swallows it. She stops herself short of just asking for more members. Hell, maybe that's belittling to the ones that are left (left...) right now. Maybe she'll do an ad campaign in the future. Maybe she'll work it into the next big event they do. Maybe a lot of things. For now, she just wants to hug her rooster and leave it at that] -Whatever.

[And with that she ends it. People can make what they will of that.]

[Voice]

[Sure she's still reeling from Shiki being Gone. And Hiccup. And Astrid. And ... well. Her Brigade is down to a small number but she doesn't have the gusto to do much for recruiting. She'll send out Grune in a skimpy outside soon enough, she decides, but for the time being, there is one project her Brigade's name was attached to which sort of trailed off over time-]

Does anyone miss Project Hydra Social?

[It's not like her to ask for approval. And really, she isn't, not quite. But a part of her isn't motivated for anything, so- she's going to ask there. She can answer or discuss it with people from the comfort of her own hoe, maybe as she practices something magical. And besides this-]

[Voice // Filtered to the SOS-Brigade]

Who's up for the mainden voyage and the christening of our submarine? We should do that, before the end of the month!

[This can also be action for anyone who wants to run into her at her house]

( Filtered to the SOS-Brigade )

[Voice // Open]

Oh right, if anyone needs flying transportation that the teleporters that Leon of the SOS-Brigade provided with some help from Sokka can't get you to, the SOS-Brigade now has a flying dragon in our coffers. Her name's Isabelle and she'd love the exercise!

[BONUS ACTION: If anyone wants to run into Haruhi jogging around town in the morning or shopping in the afternoon after the meeting you can do either]

[Voice]

Summer's drawing to a close already... we're already half-way through August, pretty much. There's really a lot of things left to do now, even if I wasn't really planning a lot... [A hum] I guess being made super old wasn't in my plans. [Old...] I'm actually twenty years old now, how weird is that? [Physically now, even, because of what happened on her birthday. Not that is will necessarily stand out to people] But anyway, seriously? There's submarining, bug catching, exploring some ancient ruins, spelunking, maybe going out on a date or something... Actually I'd like to spelunk! SOS-Brigade, assuming that we don't get a working submarine in two weeks, let's go explore some caverns!

-Right, that reminds me. I haven't been around for it, but this is Luceti so I'm sure bad things have happened. If any of you guys are suffering from issues - emotional psychological, interpersonal, maybe economic, the SOS-Brigade can assist you. Bonus points if it's interesting, but our doors are open! [And if you don't want to respond to this post or make your own or something you can reply here] Similarly, if you want to help people like that, go spelunking, or are at all are into the idea of your life being filled with purpose and meaning, sign up to join the SOS-Brigade! You need only make sure it's approved by the Chief, that is to say, me.

Oh, right... Anyone who's from Xion's world and can use magic, I'd like a word with you guys.

( Filters: Precis, Leon, Helios, Sokka, Howard, and Hiccup )

[Voice / Action for the library]

[For the last 20some days, Haruhi Suzumiya has been obsessively studying. While she slowed down some after the Cultural Fair, it still was a very, very welcome distraction from thinking about how much she was hurt by that break up. Which is why she's been in and our of the library a lot. Finally though today she has decided to prop open the journal and ask for help.]

Hey, Luceti, does anyone recognize these?

[And she moves the journal to focus on:
* Helios's universe basic spellbook
* Basic Buffyverse spellbook (possibly this one or this one)
Lined up next to each other. these are the two she's had the most success with so far... she even more or less mastered one of the spells in the first one.]

Or these?

[And now it focuses on:
* Touhou Grimoire
* CLAMP universe magic tome (Western)
* CLAMP universe magic tome (Eastern)
Much less success here...]

Or this one? [She is much more unhappy sounding at this last book (a Greenhill Academy Rune textbook) because she's had basically no success even figuring out what it is talking about other than it apparently deals with mythology and magic... things.]

Or, I also found the "Writings of Aurelius" next to those first two ones, but I'm not sure if it's got spells in it or not... [it feels ominous, actually... so she figured it might, but- inside it just looks like a bunch of horoscope type things as well as just some weird old school notes]

I'm looking for people who know these books and are willing to tutor me in what's within them. I expect answers ASAP; that is all. [A pause] Also, Leon, since when do you write textbooks? [And then the camera focuses on a book written by Leon DS Geeste on Symbology]

[Anyone can, of course, question here about this post. Or the books. Or both]

[Voice]

Hey, SOS-Brigade, I'm going to be out for the next few days. Off to the desert.

[A beat]

That said, just because I'm going to be out doesn't mean that people who were traumatized by the experiment shouldn't come to seek my Brigade's counsel. In fact, if you were, go ahead and stop by, we'll sort you out. [here or on this post or your own post or wherever]

[Hum. Mentioning Hydra Social or plans she might have for March would be too much, this is good for now. Really she's... a little nervous, but she's also confident she's got this for for the desert. Cooking, keeping supplies in order, management. All things she excels at.]

Over and out!

[Feel free to reply with anyone of course]

[Written]

( Brigade List )
I don't know how many of you have heard, but these are the members of my SOS-Brigade, and our new purpose right now is to help out those of you who need help, answering your "SOS." Your lives must have problems, right, particularly after the sort of things we have to go through. Just come to the Brigade HQ and see how we can solve your things. Bonus points if it's something interesting too.

[Yeah, that'll do. She was just doing this to give herself something to do right now anyway. Why it's written, not voiced]

[Written // Filtered from Tear & Minato]

How many of you are looking to make new friends? Or getting to know a hot chick or an attractive guy?

[Action]

[In light of everything, Haruhi has been feeling more than a little nostalgic. Back at North high, during the start of the year and the cultural festival in November she dressed up in a certain outfit in order to attract attention. It's sort of too cold to wear it for advertisement like she used to, but it doesn't breathe at all so if she's inside and has a coat handy she ought to be okay...

Thus, in Seventh Heaven today Haruhi is here to have lunch and tea dressed like this. Yes, it's outlandish, but deal with it. (sorry no guitar though) Her journal is next to her. Feel free to notice or talk with her]

[Voice]

[This post comes up about an hour after the draft announcement and her reaction to it. It's cool, simple, to the point. Whoever wants to run into her will run into her during the course of the next day or two (and feel free to action that!) when she goes about "business as usual." Fur now, she's been training in magic and hand to hand, but neither is going to be efficient here, so-]

Someone teach me how to shoot a gun.

[And who knows, maybe people will reply to her about unrelated garbage too. She's still trembling, sitting on the roof of her house tonight

[Voice]

[...Okay, she can do this. She's normal, finally (or so she'd like to convince herself) and because of that it's time to get to business.]

...Okay, Brigade, if you didn't get the memo yet we've lost a lot of members- including Naoki and Yoohoo, among others. [Her voice dips. But then there's a slapping sound and she presses on, her tone getting brighter] But that's beside the point! New feathers, there's a lot of you guys now, and old feathers too, some of you guys must want some excitement in your life, right?! Ever feel that budding sense of your existence here being meaningless?! Well, think no further, because for a short time only the SOS-Brigade is accepting applications for new members to our illustrious ranks!

But some of you might think "Wow I'm lame and have been living under a rock and/or haven't read the guide, what is this completely amazing sounding organization," right? Since you asked, I'll answer free of charge!

[and the following part is transcribed with writing as well as spoken. The symbol itself is shown to the journal in the form of her putting a photo-copied version of it up to the camera]
( explaining the Brigade )

So there you have it! And, like I said, we're accepting applications! So hurry up and speak up so that I, Haruhi Suzumiya, can process you and determine if you have the right stuff!

[Action]

[Buuut, once that announcement is made in ther break time for school at about 10:30 AM (and thus replies might be later in the day) Haruhi has places to be. She's being low-key about it, but it is White Day, after all. So, during her lunch break at school she sets off- she had her Winry Day yesterday, but she owes Winry something in return. Thus, with a bag over her shoulder around 12:30PM she's made her way to Winry's house to knock.

From there, back to school, finishing it up, the Brigade meeting... and then loitering around town is her MO for the afternoon. She got chocolate for all of the guys in the Brigade (plus Neku and maybe some others) after all, and even she's not voicing it she expects things back from there. ...And Minato. And Keiichi. But she's not going to press the issue there because even she's not sure she wants them. But if you see her lurking around the square in the afternoon that's why.]

( too many explanations [potential action for housemates )

[Filtered from Minato and Keiichi // Voice // 85% Unhackable]

[In a much happier voice than anyone is probably expecting:] Kurt, Tacihi, Leon, Mikage, Uriko, [because she doesn't know she's gone yet] Yoohoo, Anne- status reports?

[Naoki she knows what's up. Keiichi... just no. Hanyuu and Rena are with Keiichi. Minako is with her twin. No need to ask about any of them]

...SOS-Brigade! We didn't have one today and we won't have our customary Saturday lunch either, but starting next week, meetings are on again! Be sure to show up, and being late will result in a harsh penalty! No mistakes, got it?! The snow's been melting left and right already, and today is even hotter than all the other days so far, right?! So pretty soon it's going to be spring, and we've got lots of important things to do in spring! And for that matter, anyone else who has a mystery or something for us to deal with who who plans to in the future, drop us a line! You can't miss us!

Over and out!

[And then, well, there's one more message she needs to address now. She's (finally) hanging out in her Brigade room if anyone for some reason will be there in the afternoon and early evening to bump into her there]

[Filtered to Minato // 85% Unhackable]

...Hey.

( explanation )

[Voice // Filtered to Winry // 98% Unhackable]

...I- [her voice breaks. She starts to cry again dammit, damn it she said she wouldn't-] I'm- ["sorry" - how is that good enough? How is anything?]

Le-let's... [And there's a whimpered little sob here before he voice goes numb and hollow] ...We should talk, if you want to.

[Voice // Filtered from Minato and Keiichi // 90% Unhackable]

[There's a deep inhale before she starts here, but her voice is still ragged. She delayed long enough to regain control, but.]

Brigade. Meetings are canceled until further notice, so anyone who is in or knows anyone in that draft just... focus on that.

[Voice // Filtered to Leon // 80% Unhackable]

Leon I- ["I need you to be ready to bring me back" "I need your support" "I might make a Closed Space again" "I hate this" "I don't want you to go" "I need you to replace the boys" "I want to die" "I want to forget" "I want all of this goddamned world to end"

...They all die in her mouth, so she just leaves this as is] Good luck.

[Voice // Filtered to Sokka // 80% Unhackable]

[And this this one comes as an afterthought. He conversation with Katara comes to mind, and for some reason, because everything else is horrible, what's it going to do her to say one more thing?]

Sokka. I'm- [After what she knows she's going to say above and how she's felt in the last few days, she's surprised how easy this is to say. Her voice comes of dead though, hollow. She's beyond feeling anything beyond a miserable numbness] sorry. Thank you for the help on the teleporter.

[And with that, her moral obligations are complete. And no, she doesn't feel any need to contact Keiichi or Minato. Housemates might find her locked in her own room all day aside from if she goes to visit anyone in the threads, but otherwise, there's nothing action-y here]

[Voice]

( Exposition leading to this entry )

[From a hiding place (a not particularly good one per say, but a hiding place of the spare room on the second floor of her her house) she begins what she knows will be hard for her to say. She sounds in no way comfortable as she starts with-]

Hey, Luce- [no that's stupid-] everyone I know. Or... yeah, everyone I know, or other people, I don't care! [That got harsh. She's awkward here] Look-! ...Look. Anyone that knew that guy, Haruki Suzumiya that wasn- ... The was... [UGH. The letter in her hand crumples a bit as she pushes it together, awkward] ...Whatever, forget it! Jeez, damn Malnosso. It's not important!

[ ... ... A minute later]

...No. It is important, after all. Look- that guy, I have his- no, I have my own memories, which are basically his except I'm in them and none of you remember it like that. [Dammit dammit she sounds like she's repeating a point. Things she's already said. Dammit. There's a growl of frustration before she slips up out of her chair to pace, leaving the journal on the table but still talking loud enough to be recorded] I have memories, alright?! So I know some of you- a lot of you, I guess. But- [...] But I guess, you guys don't know me. You-

[ARGH. she looks again at the letter and then crumbles it into a ball. She throws it at the floor and then presses on, stopping in place and yelling now]

Some of you liked that guy, right?! Some of you were friends and some of you lo- [gulp-] loved that guy, right?! I'm not that guy- it's been two weeks since I showed too, so unless he Malnosso are bigger assholes than anyone thought I'm not going to be that guy either. [But if she is, if she 'reverts back' next week or tomorrow, this post is meaningless. ...Maybe it still is. But it feels like her heart is breaking and she needs to do something. Even as she stays all this, she feels no catharsis though, only her hollow dread turning into a real fear - a fear, what? Rejection? Probably, but fear of something tangible is better than something she doesn't even know the face]

So- ... So fine, that's that! We're different, alright?! And I was expecting you to forget but- fine! Don't forget him, it doesn't matter! [...UGH. Dammit, she's losing the point again. She crouches, picking up the crumbled ball of the letter]

...I know things can't be the same as I remember them, but I guess things also won't be the same as you remember. I want to just pick up where I left off but that's- [...dammit] That's not completely possible, is it? It's not like I'm a time traveler and can go back and change things and- [...she could change it to everyone remembering her. But that's not fair, even if she did know how to manage it. And last time. She mutters-] ...And Leon would screw it up again

[That might not have even been recorded, but she stands after this, her voice gaining resolve.]

So what I'm saying is that... I'm Haruhi. I'm the Chief of the SOS-Brigade, and- and if you knew that Haruki guy we can start over, starting now! And if you didn't know that guy, then it doesn't matter because I'm me and whatever he said or did doesn't matter to you anyway! ["judge me only as me"]

So, hi everyone, it's nice to meet you! [Should she add "I hope you'll look after me?" ...No, that's just stupid. She should leave it at that.]

( Later, for Sokka )